Tuesday, September 21, 2010

the next step

I just made an appointment for next Monday with an RE. Excited and nervous.

In the meantime, I am going to actually try to work at work. Last week was an embarrassment. Being unable to work just further stresses me out and I have figured out that I am unable to work because I can't stop obsessing about what is going on inside my body. Hopefully treating with an RE will give me more insight into whether my ovaries are responding to medication more quickly and definitively than charting and waiting blindly for a period or a temperature shift- which, will lead to more work getting done at work? I really hope so, because being unemployed just isn't an option.


  1. So happy you made that decision sweetie. I know it's not an easy one to make but I am confident you will be able to get more concrete answers from and RE.

    I know what you mean about spacing out at work and focusing on FF for hours. I did the same thing for 6 months and it was not pretty!Cannot wait to hear how your first appointment goes! I remember I had huge list of questions for my RE and she answered every single one of them, which put me right at ease. Good luck!!

  2. I’m so proud of you for making that appointment to the RE. I have to say, as soon as I made that plunge, I felt so much better. There’s something about talking with a specialist that makes you feel like you’re actually DOING something!

    I know exactly how you feel about work. It’s amazing how much time I’ve wasted NOT working. Here’s a trick that has helped me: Set a timer for 15 minutes. Tell yourself that you have to work, without stopping, for 15 minutes. You will be amazed at how much you get done in those 15 minutes. Then when that is done, set the timer for another 15 minutes, and during that time you can do whatever you want. Google, read blogs, play with your chart, look at other charts, whatever. But when that 15 minutes is done, you have to do another 15 minutes of work. I’ve gone through whole days like that. And even though I know that ½ of my time was spent not working, I’ve been able to accomplish so much more by spending 15 minute increments actually focusing on my work. It’s worked for me, maybe it can work for you.

  3. Good luck with your appt, I hope you get some needed answers.
    Thank you so much for you kind words on my blog. I am looking forward to following your story and supporting you along the way.