Friday, March 23, 2012

baby sleep

you know that saying, "when mama's happy, everyone's happy"? i would like to amend that to: "when baby's happy (and sleeping), everyone's happy (and sleeping)." it's so ironic that just yesterday i said A had started sleeping better, because last night was not good. it took me close to an hour to get her to sleep, not including our whole night time routine. that is just the time i spent holding, rocking, patting, nursing, and jiggling her trying to get her little eyes to close and to stay closed when i set her precious little butt in the crib. she finally went down at 8:30. when i woke up to pee at 12:45, i was happy to see her still sound asleep. i was a little smug even, thinking to myself, "it's going to be amazing to be well-rested two days in a row!" HA!

P got home at 1:30 (he works nights) and she was still fast asleep. of course, i had been awake since 12:45 debating whether to dreamfeed her since i was awake anyway. P and i decided against it in favor of seeing how long she would sleep without a dreamfeed. BAM at 2 AM she is awake! i go in, check her diaper, and nurse her in the glider. we are gliding and nursing. i am doing my best to not fall asleep and let her roll off my boob. i realized that 30 minutes had gone by and she still had not passed out! i took the boob away, which she mildly protested by grunting and rooting and smacking me in the boob, and rocked her. and rocked her. and rocked her. at 3 AM P came in to give me a break, since i needed to get up for the day at 4:30. he could not get her to stay asleep either and determined her teeth were causing discomfort. after a half dose of tyl.enol and some more nursing, she was finally out. i slept for 40 minutes before my alarm went off and look like holy hell today.

so, in conclusion, it wasn't a terrible night. she didn't wake up six times or more like she had been before this week, but it was still tough to be up that long in the wee hours of the morning. A started out as a great sleeper. i had to wake her every 3 hours during the night until she was 2 months for feeds, and after 2 months, i got the ok from the pediatrician to let her go a 7 hour stretch. she slept for a 7 hour stretch most nights until she was 4 months old, when all hell broke loose and she decided sleeping for 1.5 hour stretches was more desirable. i have read a lot about 4 month sleep regressions, but 4 months also happened to be exactly when i returned to work. although i only work in the office three days, she noticed. smart little bugger.

aside from a few partial test nights after she turned 6 months and some short naps, A had not slept in her crib in her room all night until last Saturday night. before that, she was in a portacrib in our room. that first night went well. she woke up three times: once P rocked her back to sleep in less than 5 minutes and twice to nurse. she slept until 7:45 AM! Sunday night was even better with only two wake ups, and Monday and Tuesday night only one wake up to feed. she was definitely ready for her crib. she probably has been for a while, but i wasn't ready.

i loved having her arms length away from me all night and being able to pull her into bed with us whenever i wanted; however, she was waking frequently at night and P convinced me that we were waking her with our tossing and turning and his snoring. turns out, he was right, but i still miss having her so close at night. i definitely do not miss the frequent night wakings and have been much happier with more sleep! hopefully last night was a fluke and tonight i will be able to get some sleep. because sleep is awesome.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

welcome ICLW

this is my first ICLW since having A. it is time for me to come out of hibernation! i keep putting off posting because so much as happened since my last post, that i don't know where to start. this is just a crafty excuse i use to procrastinate and to cocoon myself away from the world. i use a similar excuse to avoid working out... usually "i'm too tired" or "there is not enough time" or "when i lose some weight i'll start" (the last one makes the least sense!). sadly, i also use these excuses to put off calling or seeing friends, getting my finances in order, and cleaning.

one of my goals for 2012 was to stop making excuses and to do what needs to be done, as well as to be more disciplined in general. so, here i am, jumping in! life has been good. A has started sleeping better again (a separate post), P is more rested and thus, less cranky, i am getting into a routine at work, and i am committed to getting more active. The nice weather and extra hours of sunlight has helped lift my spirits.

some stuff that has been on my mind and will be the topic of some upcoming posts: TTC #2, breastfeeding/weaning, sleep training, organizing and decluttering, and getting healthier.

background for ICLW visitors: P and i got married in September 2009. i stopped taking birth control a few months before the wedding because our plan was just to let things happen. for a long time, probably a few years, i had a feeling that getting pregnant would not be as simple as having sex with my husband/significant other. there would be years that i got my period once or twice, even on birth control. i had one or two annovulatory "periods" when i went off birth control and that was it. fast forward to April 2010: i went to the ob because i had not had a period in a long time. officially diagnosed with PCOS. i was given 50 mg of clomid. i think i used clomid for 5 months, with increasing doses, and i never ovulated. the last cycle of clomid was with my RE and involved a trigger shot (there was 23mm follicle that ended up being empty). next, we moved to injectible medication. i finally ovulated in november 2010 using follistim (with an ovidrel trigger). we did IUI that month = BFN. in december 2010, higher dose of follistim, 3 mature follicles (scary), triggered on december 10, IUI on december 11, and bfp on december 21.