Sunday, September 15, 2013

A2 at 14 weeks

A2 is at one of my favorite baby stages right now.  he is still small enough to hold for long periods, he is soft and chubby, he wiggles enough to entertain himself a little, he can grab things, and he laughs, smiles, and coos.  if i could freeze him like this for another six months, i would.  holding him is pure joy and when he gets excited to see me, my heart could burst.

as far as sleeping though, A2 has been torture for about two weeks now.  from the time he came home from the hospital until two weeks ago, he only woke once at night to nurse.  i was delighted at how rested i felt and thought i had struck gold with a "good" sleeper.  HA.  two weeks ago, A2 began waking a minimum of three times to nurse, with restless periods in between.  he is sleeping in our room in a rock and play, which is not optimal, i know.  i tried for a week to get him to sleep in the mini-crib in our room, but he is difficult to get down in it and then wakes every 40-60 minutes until i give in and put him in the rock and play.  he is still swaddled as well, even though he seems to be fighting it more and more.

i have experimented with leaving his arms out, or just one arm out, but it makes him even more restless because he still startles sometimes and his arms wake him.  at this point, i am not sure what to do to improve things, beyond just waiting a week or two and trying the crib/arm(s) out of swaddle again. i know this is an area that will improve as he matures and we are able to put him in his own room, but it is still difficult to function on so little sleep. this is one of the reasons i am nervous to return to work tomorrow.  i am afraid i will be so tired that i will not be able to function.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

we bought a laptop a few hours ago and, after setup, updating the blog is my first task.  our second child, our son A.dam D.avid (A2), was born in early June.  the pregnancy and labor were much different than with A.melia (A).  i hope to write both birth stories in the near future.

i have been on maternity leave since about two weeks before A2 was born and will return to work on monday.  with A, i remember looking forward to my return to work, but this time around, i am dreading it.  A2 is a much different baby.  he is most comfortable with me, hates taking a bottle, and does not like anyone else to put him down for naps or bedtime.  P is awesome with him- as awesome as A2 will allow.  over the last three weeks, A2 has slowly improved his bottle skills, so i am hoping he will take full bottle feedings while i am in the office. 

P is taking his last month of paternity leave starting monday, so hopefully A2 will adjust to having someone else care for him and P will adjust to fielding two children at once all day while i am work.  up to now, due to nursing, when we are both home, P has been caring for A and i have been caring for A2.  when P would leave for work in the evening, i would then handle them both. once he returns to work in October, he will be with them during the day three days a week while i am in the office and i will be with them at night.  since i work from home two days a week, we will share parenting on those days.  our schedule is difficult because we are both with them alone much of the work week, but it allows us to keep them out of daycare.

A recently turned 2.  she is talking in short sentences now and is a pure delight- aside from the2-year-old drama of course.  A adjusted smoothly to the addition of A2 to the family and loves him.  she is always looking out for him: letting me know when he is up from his nap or crying, checking on him while i am getting dinner or moving laundry around, and making sure he is included in car trips. my favorite past time lately has been taking candid photos of the two of them.  seeing them together makes me so happy that my heart hurts.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

we never made it to that RE appointment on October 6th. a week after A's first birthday (September 6th), i had lots of ewcm and achy ovaries... having only ovulated a handful of times in my adult life (mostly with injectibles), i knew i was going to ovulate.  we found out that i had indeed ovulated on September 23 when an hpt came up positive... holy crap people. 

it's a funny story, because, i actually threw the test away because i thought it was negative.  i did not think it would really work and i was mentally prepared to return to ART in October.  P asked to see the test an hour or so after i took it and i told him i had tossed it.  this is very unlike me.  in the past, i would hold on to those suckers and squint at them for days (ok weeks) after.  like a nutjob.  P said he saw a faint line.  i was like pffffft ok, but sure enough, there it was.  i woke up at 4 AM the next morning to take another hpt, and the line was much easier to see. 

we are due June 4th and are having a boy.  part of me still cannot believe it.  we know how lucky we are to avoid fertility treatments this time around and are amazed that this is how so many people have babies.  it was painless.  it freaks me out, because i feel like it was too easy, but i am trying to just go with it and not let the worry creep in.